im back,
but im also leaving.

so here is what is going on.

if you have read previous journal entries you probly picked up on the fact that i am frequently depreased and moody as hell. i decided to stop all artistic things about 2 weeks ago with the exeptions of school asignments because of the deep depresion i was falling into the more i expressed my self it seemed the deeper i fell. wierd i know, but it was like I was the one beating MYSELF into all of it.
now while i have been A WOL i talked to 4 of my best friends about everything, or at least parts when i needed to, as well as my grandmother. and after that i let everything go and didnt think or concentrate on anthing but school. and 3 days ago things started looking up. i woke up the other morning and just happened to think of the dream i had months ago. it did restore a bit of hope in me and then a couple of other great things happened wich i wont get into.
i guess i have finaly snapped out of it, because i know im not at rock bottem anymore, but instead climbing out of that hole i dug myself into.

anyways.
this account only reminds me of everything bad.
so i made a new one.
yea i know. AGAIN.
but it feels right to do if im going to start things over.

here is the link to the account
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few of the poems here will be there, but most of it will be my actual drawings and art since that seems to be the best medician to me instead of writing.

thanks guys, i love you all.



K. R. White.